Me and the donkey...we can relate

Being reshaped by God can be so painful, but I have a feeling it would feel less abrasive if I just stopped fighting it. Wish I wasn't so stubborn. I am always in awe of people who allow God to freely flow through them, cheerfully going wherever He calls. I have always made it much more difficult than it needs to be, trying to stay in my nice neat little box. I have a deep desire to let go of myself and let God do His perfect work in me, but when it comes down to it, I tend to stand as stiff and unwilling as a donkey! Please tell me someone can relate!

God gave me a gift this morning

Woke up before the alarm this morning, and since it was impossible to get comfortable last night (being 5.5 months pregnant), and I had to go to the bathroom for the thirteen thousandth time (being 5.5 months pregnant), I decided I would start my day. And then I heard a low grumbling outside. Thunder. I went to sit on my porch, sunrise barely making an appearance, and just soak it all in. As I sat there, under a light rain fall, in a very dimly lit world, I just stared upward, waiting for the next bolt of lightning to tear through the sky. And as soon as it did, I would close my eyes and wait, for that power that I knew would follow. It would start soft and subtle and then slowly move across the sky in increasing volume and speed until I could literally feel it shaking the ground beneath me. I felt like I little child "Do it again God! Please? Do it again!" I realize everyone knows what lightning and thunder sounds and feels like, but have you ever just sat in darkness and let your senses absorb the power of God? It is truly a gift, especially since it's so rare that I stop to take in such detail of something I take for granted. He's always there, always displaying His majesty, and how often do I just walk on by, concerned about myself?

Let's see what happens...

My very first post! I've always loved writing, but I've never known if others would love my writing. So, after owning this blog in a blank state for 2 years, I'm going to start dumping content into it. Most blog advisers tell you to "pick a genre". I can't. I just cant. So this is a fair warning of the random thoughts, ideas, and general life topics that will come from my head and show up here. Most of the time I imagine it will have to do with whatever God is teaching me at that moment in time. Because I have a lot to learn, therefore I am always getting new lessons. Other times it will probably have to do with my daily life, being a wife and a mom, my dream since childhood. I may post about things I love: recipes, workouts, ...coffee. So, in conclusion (of my very first post!) I pray you will bear with me on my ramblings of this wild ride called life. You just never know what you're gonna get!